How to Use the Law of Attraction to Attract Your Soulmate
This is the story of how I found my Beloved. It is intimate and sacred, and the reason why I am willing to share with you such a story is because I know there is no more powerful resource in the world than a woman who is truly loved and no more destructive force than a woman, embittered. So bear with me, the story is lengthy (you can print it out by pressing the printer icon above, and enjoy it over a cup of coffee, or as a friend did, in a bubble bath : ) You will be sure to be amazed at how magical and supportive the Universe can be if you allow yourself full connection with your own divinity.
The Not So Distant Past
6 years ago I was a very different person than I am now. I was a deeply emotional being who was extremely critical of the self and quite a perfectionist. I attended U.C. Berkeley for my undergraduate work and went to NYU Grad Film to become a filmmaker. While in grad school, I balanced a highly competitive and ego-centric atmosphere with a deep love for metaphysical and esoteric knowledge. AND I was in a karmic relationship with a fiancé who I loved deeply but who triggered me intensely.
Everyone has different things that trigger him or her, for me it was infidelity. My parents were not faithful to one another. In their language of relationship, infidelity was akin to a kind of love dance. Their unconscious posture was, “Hey if you were jealous and possessive of someone then you cared for them, right?” They were not aware that their dance translated into a twisted sadness within me, a deep fear of intimacy and distrust of men. So with this view of the world, what kind of relationships do you think I would attract?
As you know, the law of attraction plays out in the midst of love not in spite of it. So four months before the wedding, my fiancé informed me that he had a lap dance in Tokyo on his business trip. For many women, this may not seem like such a big deal, but our triggers are always tailored to our own particular fears. When he saw how distraught I was, he swore that he would not do it again, that it was simply because a business partner brought him there for a meeting and he was curious…and since I loved him so deeply, I convinced myself that it was a one time fluke..well it was not. A month before my wedding, everything had been finalized, location, band, caterer, dress was being made, guests had booked their tickets, gifts had already started to arrive. My fiancé returns from his bachelor’s party and remarks, “Honey there was a good omen for the wedding, I met this woman who went to your high school and who is Asian. ” “What woman?” I asked. “Oh the one who gave me a lap dance…” As in shock as I was, I could see the bizarre accuracy of the universe at work. This man, self-centered as he was, was not crazy. What he was saying was so strange (how could a lap dancer be a good omen for a wedding, no matter which way you cut it?) it was as if the universe was saying “is this still your trigger? Do you still believe you deserve this?”
At the time I did not have a clue about divine partnership or the concept of a “beloved”, I did know however that I could no longer walk down the aisle with anything but a grin of terror across my face. So although it felt like catastrophe, losing face in Chinese culture is especially humiliating, I walked away from the wedding.
I chose at that moment that I would not accept a life for myself that compromised my values but I also realized that I needed help in what I was creating.
And so I went on a shamanic journey and studied with top metaphysical intuitives, learning all about the law of attraction and the art of manifestation. I gained much wisdom yet none of them were in relationships that I would call divine. I continued and faced some of the deepest and darkest shadows of the self, and it was not until I used my own methods of manifestation and intuitive work that I was able to not only find but more importantly to accept my beloved.
How My Connection to the Divine Helped Me Manifest Him…
But enough of that, you want to hear about the good stuff, how I magically manifested my divine partner…and when I say magical it is layered with miracles, because with the Divine, miracles are the truth and everything else is fiction.
In 2004, after having been a metaphysical practitioner for a few years, I had transformed quite a bit. I had experienced a revolution with my emotions, and flipped my emotional state from being mostly worried, anxious and moody to mostly joyful, peaceful and was just around the corner from being mostly ecstatic. I had been meditating for years, and even had an experience where I found myself illuminated and surrounded by golden light for an entire evening. It was so incredibly blissful I wondered why I was on a planet that could have so much suffering if it could be otherwise. When I asked this question, I heard, “you are to bring that here.” I was a bit conf